Holiday Reflections

Went to mass the other night and the priest kept saying that this isn't the time for us to be happy because of all the bad things that are happening all over the country and all over the world. I think that is just so unfair. Before anyone kicks me, I just want to defend my point. First, its not our fault that we have reason to be happy compared to other people. It's such a "Filipino mentality" to think that we cannot possibly express happiness of any sort just because others are suffering. I'm not saying that we shouldn't sympathize with others, I'm just saying that we should be allowed to be happy despite the times. If everyone was miserable, there wouldn't be much hope for the world.

Nietzsche tells us to practice generosity out of excess. Perhaps this is an example of this. Compared to other people, we really are in excess of "happiness". Maybe with that, we have more reason to be thankful to God and be more generous and compassionate to other people. I find that being thankful for what we have, no matter how little it may seem at times, is a more effective way of finding the strength to give. Wallowing in self-pity and depression for all the wrong things that are happening around us just makes other people even more miserable. Madaling makiramay pero mahirap mag-bigay ng pag-asa.

Another thing I want to rant about is how patriarchal the typical Filipino household is. The women do all the cooking, grocery shopping, cleaning, gift wrapping and worrying, while the men just wait to be served. I hate that I'm the bunso and I'm a woman, hence all these tasks are delegated to me. It's just unfair. Then we wonder why men can't be more responsible! It's because we don't let them be responsible! Hay.

Anyhoo, I've finished 6 out of 10 "tasks" I wanted done over the vacation. In just a few days time, pasukan na naman. The term break just seems so short. Ha, you would think that by now I'd be used to it. I guess I'm just really trying to savor my last few months of being a student. By the way, I brought out all my thesis stuff yesterday and browsed through what I've had done so far. Hay, I've got a long way to go. Pa-edit ng drafts sa mga tao ha? Hehe. (Donna, I know where you live! Wala kang takas. Hehe.)

My nieces were over last night and the more time I spend with them, the more I see myself teaching elementary instead of high school. I wonder if it's just because I'm with them or I'm "discovering" a new side of myself. I'm also thinking of doing my practice teaching over at Palanan and not LSGH. Parang mas-kaya ko eh. And although LSGH is closer to Marikina, I don't know how to get there on an everyday basis yet, seeing that I don't know how to drive yet. Hmm...

Riris, Chay's sister, is in the process of figuring out if she passed La Salle. The results are supposedly out but I can't search it yet. Palaging error. Pwede sanang text sa DLSU Wise but she doesn't know her case number. Hay sus. Anyway, I hope she passes...

This new year has a lot in store for all of us. Maraming graduating, maraming naghahanap ng trabaho. As for me, I'll be going through a lot starting with my thesis. I know this is such an old story already but the reason why I've put it off for so long is because I'm so scared of it. It's going to be one heck of a hurdle to go through. I'm not even nervous about my practicum right now coz all my nerves are focused on the thesis. God I hope I get it done this time. After thesis and practicum, I'll have to worry about jobs and deciding whether or not to take my MA right away. It's going to be a big transition because of the responsibilities that will be shifted towards me. Hay. I know most of us are going to be in this transitional phase soon (if not, we already are) and I hope we all find what suits us best. Sana mahanap natin ang mag-papasaya sa'tin. =D

That's about it. Marami na rin ata akong buntong hininga at happy face. Hope everyone had a blast last night. Have a very prosperous New Year!

Christmas Wishes

Everyone seems to have lists of things they want for Christmas, or at least things they want to have or happen in the near future. Here's mine:

1. Magbati na kami ni Eda. As in yung malinaw na usap, no more uncertainties.
2. For once, sana walang magtanong ng "Bakit ka tumaba?" or "Bakit hindi ka pumapayat?" when I see them. (Hello?! Kung alam ko ang sagot diba?)
3. Buy those pinstripe pants I've been goggling over the past year.
4. Actually finish the (full) first draft of my thesis.
5. Spend quality time with my nieces.
6. Reach out to a friend who's slowly drifting away from me.
7. Buy a new Journal/Planner for the next year.
8. Finally get contact lenses to help me see better.
9. Buy/receive and then read a novel that will make me smile.
10. Get sincere hugs from people who love me and I love as well.

Yun lang. =D
(But I'll probably add more when I think of more stuff. Hehe.)

Just Updating

Finally brought home my computer from the condo. Hence, I've had few chances to connect to the net due to my brother's telebabad habits.

Anyway, as most co-bloggers have written, the sampaguita ice cream really was a sensual experience. Anyone who's tried it would know what we all meant when we said "lasang-amoy". =D

The party at Mig's was fun. Daming kwento that went on that day/night. Got sick the next day though. I guess hindi na ko sanay gumimick ng ganun ka-late...

Christmas is just around the corner and I'm sad that I won't be able to spend time with my friends. Especially that the end of this year signals a lot of changes coming into my life. Nonetheless, I'm also looking forward to seeing my nieces. It's been a while since I've played with them and not worried about anything except tangled doll's hair.

I hope anyone reading this gets to have their own little Christmas memory this season...

Cherish every moment of it...

Church Songs and Diaries

Went to mass as a requirement for Relsfor last week. Offered a basket of fruits for the class. Almost slipped near the altar. The whole thing made me remember my high school days when things were easier and I was closer to God. Nakakamiss yung comfort nang nakakausap mo ang Diyos...

When I went home that day, I couldn't get the mass songs out of my head, and since I was in a reminiscing mood, I took out my old Isang Pasasalamat songbook from high school and just tried to sing. Ang weird nga eh kasi I'm not much of a singer (as most of you already know) pero I was having fun singing by myself. Hindi ko naman kinareer eh so ok pa. I realized then that singing helps us connect with the divine. Maybe that is really the beauty and magic behind music and art: it lets us understand and connect with what we cannot grasp, such as a higher power. Kaya masarap talagang batukan mga nag-iisip na walang sibli ang art sa buhay ng tao...

Kinalkal ko rin yung mga luma kong diary and found that I had kept quite a few. I had one since sixth grade up to second year high school. Nakakatuwang basahin yung mga sinulat ko. Ang sarap pagtawanan ng mga akala kong seryosong problema dati pero hindi pala, at syempre yung mga jologs moments ko growing up. It's kind of sad to find some pages describing the feelings I had then because it made me remember bad things I've been through. Nakakasad din na yung ibang entires dun ay kagaya pa rin ng nararamdaman ko ngayon. It was a mixture of good and bad thoughts for me, reading those entries. It was fun though. I only regret having stopped writing diaries when I reached third year... Sana pala hindi ko tinigilan...

Filipi3 project's done na. Finally! So I'm glad that's over. 2 Exams, 1 Quiz, 5 Papers, 3 Poems and 1 Short Story to go and I'm home free...

Oo nga pala, sa mga tumatawag sa Globe ko, trip lang yung Ring back Tone ko ha. Jologs na kung Jologs (as my mom put it) pero I'm just in the holiday spirit chuva. Hehe, ang defensive ano? =D

Practicum Jitters and Other Concerns

Saw Patrick (Pompee!) last week doing his micro-teaching thing at Yuchengco. Then I found out that he got voted as an outstanding teacher last term. He looked like such a natural at teaching and he seemed so comfortable in front of a class (and a grading panel!). It was sort of a wake up call to me to get my shit together. The term isn't quite over yet as I still have tons of work to do before course cards distribution, but I can't help thinking about my upcoming practice teaching and thesis. I was hopeful before that I can do them together, but now I am having doubts because I feel like I don't have the same confidence I had back then. I know it isn't until January that I really need to stress out but I am afraid of fouling up. This would be my last term at school and I hope to God everything goes well. Sana hindi ako ma-delay for whatever reason...

I guess there's still a part of me that dreams of graduating with an award or something. Who doesn't naman diba? I just hope makayanan ko. Huling pagkakataon ko na next term. It's going to be my last. I hope it will also be my best.

Graduation is just around the corner, and with most of my friends already graduates or just about to graduate themselves, the paranoia of either being successful or an absolute bum is so real to me...

I know I'm still young but sometimes I feel so old with the worries I have. The burden and the pressure I would have to bear after graduation is so heavy. Nobody's saying it but I know it's there. With the way I'm living my life right now, I feel as though graduation will only mark my plunge into the working world and the end of my youth. I feel like I haven't enjoyed enough, or lived enough. Somehow I feel like I've lost the chance to discover the world and am being forced to settle down as early as now.

So I ask myself: Am I really settling down or just plain settling?

Free Stuff?

I kept receiving this e-mail about a site giving away free stuff so long as you refer friends, so what the heck, I tried it. I don't really know if I can "win" this but, again, what the heck! Click on this site and check it out. Please? Thanks!

Here is my link:
http://www.tech4free.com/default.aspx?ref=116523

Have a good hell week everyone! =D

Acting is a Tough Job

It's been a week since Chay's birthday and I don't really have a lot to say. We went out with Jan, Flo and Chelle last Friday to celebrate. Had dinner, a few drinks (yes, uminom ako!), and coffee after. It was a good night to be with friends...

Typhoon Winnie (Winnie ba?) is about to leave the country and Marikina is again left flooded. Thank God it's not in our area. But I saw how Riverpark and Riverbanks got totally submerged in water. Wawa naman yung mga nagtitinda. Luging-lugi na siguro sila.

Must visit Riverpark sometime soon: pag-wala nang bagyo at tapos na ang papers ko!

Just saw "Bitches and Beauty Queens: The Making of Miss India" last night. The title got me intrigued of course, hence, I was glued to the TV. It's really funny (and stupid) how some girls go gaga over looking good and competing against each other to win beauty pageants. I'm not saying I'm against pageants, ha. I think they do serve some purpose in society. I just think that girls need to remember that there are other things in life than make-up, fashion and popularity. The documentary was tastefully done though, as it presented how pageants are really about the self-confidence each girl has and the amount of work she has done to be there. Somehow, I got a glimpse of how difficult it is to be "a beauty queen": the exercise, the rules, the insecurities, the pressure, the fight against the stereotype. I realized that we do have to give credit to those who possess the abilities needed to become "beauty queens" because not all people do have them.

With that said, I also want to give credit to actors and actresses who do their jobs well. I realized that it's easy for us to assume that their jobs are easy because were not there in the nitty-gritty of it all. We're doing a video-dramatization thing for Relsfor right now and heck I can't even pretend to be a teacher.

Siguro ganun talaga buhay noh? Madaling sabihing sisiw ang isang bagay kapag hindi pa natin ito ginagawa, pero kapag nasubukan na natin, tsaka lang natin makikita na pinaghihirapan rin pala ito. This realization makes me look at people with a new found respect.

"Be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a harder battle..." a quote from somewhere I don't remember anymore. =D

It's Chay's Birthday

It's Chay's birthday today! =D
Happy, happy birthday!

"Rotten" Poems

These were written during Filipi3 class today (we had to follow steps). These are my attempts at writing "rotten" poetry:

Rotten Poem #1
Sa dagat ng aking isip
Naramdaman ko ang lamig ng iyong boses
Binaba ko ang telepono
Bukas na tayo mag-uusap ulit

Rotten Poem #2
Sa kumot ng aking isip
Natikman ko ang pait ng iyong pagtingin
Tumakbo ako sa malayo
Umaasang mahabol ka sa balang araw

Bato-bato Sa Langit

First thing, it's rude to walk out on someone who is still talking to you, kahit magkaibigan lang kayo. Ang bastos ay bastos. Tamaan ka sana.

Second thing, it's hard to be there for someone when you need that someone to be there for you also--especially when promises have been made. You can't blame me for being disappointed.

Thirdly, and I've said it before, just because you are friends with someone gives them the right to treat you like crap. Friends are also human, and patience and understanding can also run out. Sana mauntog ka na.

Lastly, it's always best to practice whatever we "preach". Since you texted your ex, does that mean I also have the right to text mine? Hmm?

Still in a ranting mood...

Can't Wait for this Term to End

I can't wait for this term to end because...

1. it would mean that I've submitted all the papers I have yet to type.

2. course cards na, and there would be no turning back.

3. pwede ko nang balikan ang thesis ko at yun "lang" ang problemahin.

4. I would have the chance to clear my head, and breathe.

5. I can finally prepare for my practicum.

6. Christmas na and that would mean term break + moolah!

7. it would mean malapit na birthday ko! (actually malayo pa, excited lang ako).

8. ayoko nang makita yung iba kong prof and/or classmates this term.

9. that means no more community service! (babay bjmp!)

10. I can go out without worrying about waking up early tomorrow.

nye-hehe-hehe. wala lang. grabe gusto ko nang matapos ang term na 'toh!

Tunay na Kaibigan

First up, thanks to Marikina for the comment. At least I know may nakikiramay. =D

Napaisip ako ngayong pauwi tungkol sa mga kaibigan ko, sa mga friendship(s) na mayroon ako at sa kung anung klaseng kaibigan ba ako. Naisip ko, tulad din ng mga girlfriend/boyfriend relationships, mayroon tayong mga ineexpect sa ating mga kaibigan. In that way also, there are things we know that are expected of us as friends. Naisip ko kasi, how much are we allowed to expect from a friend? It's so vague to say the typical "just be there for me" line because that has no specific bounds.

For example, palaging late ang kaibigan mo. Dahil ba sa magkaibigan kayo, palaging ok na lang yun dahil you're expected to understand him/her? Kaibigan ka naman niya diba, so dapat maintindihan mo s'ya?

Another scenario, kilala mo ang kaibigan mo sa buong pagkatao niya dahil nga magkaibigan kayo diba? You know what ticks him/her off and how he/she "works". You know for a fact that he/she is not an emotionally reciprocating kind of person and you accept that because you know he/she is a real friend regardless of the lack of emotional attachments between you two. Does this mean you are not allowed to expect some form of emotional comfort dahil nga alam mong ganun siya?

One more scenario, you want to be there so much for a friend. Alam mong problemado siya at gusto mong tumulong. You want to "be there" for him/her as much as you can. Pero hanggang saan ka maghihintay at tutulong? What if your friend doesn't want to be helped? What if he/she's treating you like crap all the time?

Last scenario, ayaw mo ang boyfriend ng kaibigan mo. For whatever (numerous) reason/s there is, at some point, you still have to accept the guy because your friend "loves" him and you as a friend should respect your friend's decision. Does this mean you're not allowed to contradict your friend just to be the kind of "friend" you're expected to be?

I don't want to claim that I am right in all the things I do as a friend. Alam kong marami rin akong pagkukulang at hindi ako perfect. Napapaisip lang ako kung ako mismo, ano ang pwede kong i-expect sa mga kaibigan ko, knowing what they themselves expect from me. I'm torn between understanding, trying to help and "be there" for them, and just waiting for them to be there for me too. I'm not asking for much, I'm not trying to bother anyone. I just wish that some people would stop thinking about themselves so much and realize that even friendships need respect and mutuality. From my perspective, hindi porke magkaibigan kayo, you can treat anyone the way you want and expect them to take it.

Napapailing na lang ako...

Just Bitchin'

Am supposed to be writing a memoir right now for FILIPI3 due at 2pm this afternoon, but can't help "blogging" again. Figured we all ought to be doing something else right now but aren't because of whatever reason, so this would qualify as just one of those things in "the same shit, different day" scenario.

Anyway, the main reason why I haven't gotten around to writing a memoir is because I haven't chosen an aspect of my life I wanted to talk about. It's not that my life is so monotonous that there's nothing to talk about, it's actually the opposite. I have so many memories and teleseryeish experiences that it's hard to pick just one. Also, it's hard to pick a memory that is "safe" to talk about. I know I should be taking this class seriously since this is a great opportunity to learn how to write but I'm torn between touching sensitive topics in my works because I don't want them to necessarily be associated with me (ex. siguro ikaw 'tong character na 'to noh?). I'm aware that whatever it is we right is actually a reflection of our own experiences and stuff but I guess I'm not prepared for the whole world to know "my story" just yet.

Since this homework needs to get done no matter what I decide on later, I rummage through the significant moments of my life and remember my thesis... Yeah, it's still not done. I'm enrolling it (Litres2) next term, and hopefully, hopefully I'll finish it by then. It's really a sink or swim situation for me next term since it will be (it should be!) my last in La Salle. Anyhoo, I also remembered my thesis because of the conversation I had yesterday with Lucky and Shels. They, along with Hazelle and Mel, are enrolled in their thesis 2 (don't know the course code for CBE) this term. Apparently, they are/were encountering some trouble with their mentor and thesis coordinator. I don't want to give the details but it's a mixture of politics, favoritism, unmet deadlines, unrecognized agreements and revisions that they are facing right now. Basta, the latest news is that their thesis won't be accepted. This means they get a 0.0 and they will have to take it again next term. Grabe, nagulat ako sa kwento nila. Sa frosh block namin, sila pa naman yung medyo OC-OC tapos nagkaganun. Besides, I know some of them have honors on the line so failing their thesis is doubly painful. ( I can relate!) Sayang...

Feel like bitchin' right now. Had a minor argument with my mom (sort of a continuation of an old mini-argument) and I can't seem to find the words to write that darned memoir (due 2pm). Am leaving at 3:30 to go to Mandaluyong with Rocky and ER. Chay's not texting. Am about to run out of load and my Sun's 24/7 unlimited trial thing is only 'til tomorrow. Feelin' like crap right now. Have tons to do and no energy to do them. Just staring at the cursor going blink..blink at Word. Blaaaahhhh....

Minsan*

*Title inspired (actually from) the Eraserheads' song

Went to see my friends last Friday. As usual, Flo, Chay and I ended up waiting for Jan. She had Reg (Registration?) daw kasi sa UP. We waited in Tajma until finally we just went over to UP and met her there. Initial meeting time was 1:30 but we met Jan at 4pm in Palma. She had to enroll nga naman kasi and she arrived late at school, hence all the delay... (Buti na lang, enrollment/enlistment in La Salle isn't as hectic as that...)

Anyway, we ended up staying in UP 'til around 5:30-6pm. Tambay lang. Cards. Kwentuhan ng konti. Jan had to leave kasi kaya we could only stay that long. Nakaka-walang gana na. She even wanted to leave at 5pm. Na-extend lang dahil sa kwentuhan...

Sometimes I wonder how she can rush off to meet other people when we seldomly meet ourselves. I wonder why she even meets us when she (always) arrives late then has to hurry and leave. I don't even know who she is anymore.

I have so many questions to ask her yet i don't have the guts to. I'm tired of wondering about her. She obviously doesn't wonder about me, or Flo, or Chay. What's the point?

If she reads this, fine. If she doesn't, all's good. There's nothing to be done really.

"...Ngunit ngayon, kay bilis maglaho ng kahapon. Sana'y 'wag kalimutan ang ating mga pinagsamahan. Kung sakali mang gipitin ay laging iisipin na minsan tayo ay naging tunay na magkaibigan..."

Mandaluyong City Jail, Here We Come!

Last Saturday, Rocky, ER and I went to Mandaluyong City jail to start with our BJMP/Relsfor requirement. We found the place easily, thanks to Rocky's navigational skills. At first, the place was a bit intimidating since the building was a bit run down and stinky but when we got to the third floor and saw the office, everything seemed less scary than what I expected. It felt awkward to be surrounded by so many policemen. Weird thing is I'm not sure I felt awkward because I felt safe, or because I felt unsafe. Anyway, we didn't stay that long since the Paralegal Officer assigned to us wasn't there. We only ended up having a short orientation on what we were supposed to do (another paralegal officer talked to us but said he didn't know what to ask us to do yet).

I asked to take a peek inside the jail, so we went inside and looked. It was visiting day so there were more people there that usual. It was a bit scary but not so much that I wouldn't want to go back there. The jail was overflowing (they could only accomodate 250 but were holding 800+ inmates inside), and the living conditions were terrible. Actually I expected this somehow but I guess it's really different when you see for yourself the entire picture.

We left around 30 minutes later. I don't know what my groupmates' plans are but I hope we can help these people, especially the kids/minors, somehow.

Come Sunday, I read this article in the Inquirer about how De La Salle is requiring its students to do paralegal volunteerism for its Theology 4 classes. It showed four students interviewing an inmate from the Marikina City Jail and an inlet of Mr. Ed Lucero, the Cosca coordinator. The article narrated how some students from previous term/s were able to free inmates by following up on their cases, and how one student chose to celebrate her debut in prison. It was also hinted in that article that this was a way for La Salle students to come out of their "sheltered" lifestyles. (Hmmm..)

Hopefully, when this term ends, all our efforts would've made a difference, not just in other people's lives but also in our own. I hope this will all be worth it in the end.

Career Options

After going out with the girls last week (Lit Ladies, shout out!), I got into another one of those what-am-I-going-to-do-after-graduation kind of "contemplative" mood. I think I was the only one who couldn't answer when the topic of "future plans" came around. As days passed after that night, I kept on thinking what my plans really were after graduation. It's not like this is the first time I've actually thought about it but this is the just the first time I'm really scared about what to do. I know it's a bit of an exaggeration to say that this (whatever plan or decision I make) will affect my entire life but I can't help but think that it will.

Okay, enough of the panicky side. I ask myself what would I enjoy most? Why did I take up my course in the first place? Time and again, I would always answer: I want to teach Literature. If I choose to do that, I guess I really would have to pursue an MA right away in order to get that goal. But what am I going to do while pursuing an MA? Teach in the lower levels? That's a good option too but I'm not so into teaching Grammar, which goes hand in hand with Literature in Elementary and High School English classes. If I apply as a Part-Time Instructor in some colleges to teach basic Lit classes, that would be great too. But now the issue of money comes into the picture. I want to be able to pay my way through Grad School (ayoko na humingi sa mom ko noh!) and help out. So should I be prioritizing looking for a better paying job than my own goal? Haaaay.

I guess people in my position aren't really lost about graduating and careers, it's just that we're aware of all the responsibilities we have to face and am confused about which path to take in order to satisfy all of them.

It's Been A Long Weekend

Thanks to Eda's efforts, my blog now has a new skin. Thanks, Eda!!!

Anyhoo, I really should be writing a paper right now but I can't help writing a new post. It's been a long weekend and I have a lot of gripes I want to talk about. S'yempre papanindigan ko ang blog title ko!

First up, I have a new Sun sim (Thanks, Chay!). My Globe's still active (I'm using 2 phones) so no need to update your phone peeps. I guess I wanted to get with the bandwagon on the "unlimited calls/texts" Sun is offering. Unfortunately, their signal's not so strong. Actually, I don't have signal at home. I only get a signal when I'm out of the house or in the garage. S'yempre hassle mag-phone kasi malamok diba? So if you guys are thinking of switching, let this be a warning. But to be fair, the unlimited thing is great nonetheless since their signal's strong elsewhere.

Moving on, I had this really weird-hit-you-in-the-gut kind of dream the other night. I dreamt I was getting married to this older guy (not naman DOM ha, maybe prof age) who was rich and all my relatives were pushing me to be with him and all that. I was in this melodramatic-teleserye kind of dream where I had no choice but to do what my family wanted and was afraid of my husband 'coz he might kill me kind of chuva. All I could think about was What about Chay? What about Chay?... That dream really made me feel queasy when I woke up.

Last topic on the menu: my real-life, never-ending drama. This weekend, our maid came home to the province for the "holidays" so again, my mom, my brother, and I were left to fend for ourselves. I cannot express how frustrated I am with our family's situation. I don't even know where to begin. Actually, it's not my family's situation, it's my brother's situation. Over this weekend, he's gone home drunk the following morning without even telling us that he won't be home the night before (uso ang nakawan sa amin ngayon so we could've locked the doors na lang sana) and parked the Revo outside and left the doors unlocked (as I said, he was drunk: I don't even know if my mom noticed). It's not just this one time that this "incident" happened. It's always a bunch of little things that you would feel silly complaining about, but when you look at the entire picture, grabe!!! He is by far the most insensitive, self-centered person I know. Hay nako, like father like son talaga. I hate to be saying that 'coz I know he would hate to hear it but he's turning out to be just like my dad. He's already 28 and he's still receiving allowance for Christ's sake! I'm beginning to lose hope of him ever waking up to the responsibilities of being a parent, a son and a husband. Napapailing na lang ako.

As for my mom, kinukunsinti forever. All she says is "hayaan mo na, hayaan mo na". Ayan, napabayaan na nga. Two, three years from now, I'm sure, ganito pa rin sitwasyon namin. This is so frustrating because we never seem to move on. We're already having problems with money and stuff, ganito pa. I applaud my mom for being the hard-working, patient matryr that she is but enough is enough. She has to set some limits. It's about darned time. How come she can do that with me but not with my brother? Sometimes I think she's so old-fashioned that even she applies double standards to her own children. I'm happy to help out as much as I can, I'm not complaining about that. All I'm saying is my brother should help out too. Just because he's a guy doesn't mean he's excused from cooking and all that crap. It would be fine to have those jobs delegated to me since I'm a girl (which is a pathetic reason in the first place) but he should also do the jobs delegated to him since he's a guy (cleaning the car, driving, repairs & stuff). At least at some point, we're still equal since we're both helping out. God, there's so much to say. I don't want this to look like I'm bad-mouthing my brother and all. He is a good person and he does love his kids, there's just so much lacking, that's all. And only I can see the need for change in this whole scene of domestic drama. This is so frustrating. Wala na, sira na araw ko.

So much for typing homework. Haaaay.

Technology Shmenology 2

Just had a great TESTSED class today. Sir Garcia taught us how to edit video clips via Pinnacle Studio (i think). Made me wish I had the software and stuff to try it. Mukhang carry naman eh. Looks easy enough. I think my non-techie mind can navigate through it. Unfortunately, the system requirements for the whole thing are kind of hard to get. I think I would have to spend 3 Christmases worth of pamasko (even if I buy from our friendly neighborhood Suking Tindahan) just to be able to buy the stuff (including the camera to be able to get clips in the first place), so medyo downer na tuloy. Haay.

Everybody says technology's getting cheaper. How come I don't feel it?

Just read Pat's blog. I'm worried...

Technology Shmenology

I've been logged on for almost two hours now and I still can't figure out how to attach links to my blog. Have also been checking out skins at www.blogskins.com and have found some nice ones but I still don't know how to use those either. This is so freakin' frustrating...

Hay nako. Bahala na si Batman.

I'll just eat a doughnut and start saving phone numbers on my cell. The sake of my blog depends greatly on Eda now. Hanggang dito na lang ang ganda ko.

Goodbye Phone Book

Chay and I exchanged Memory Cards yesterday just to see if we could somehow copy/transfer her games/applications to my phone. Apparently, we pressed something wrong and voila! all the details of her Memory Card (and phone settings as well) got transferred to my phone! That included her operator logo, images and yes, phone book. This meant that my own phone book got erased! Now I gotta start from scratch and collect everybody's cel numbers again. Dang.

So, moral lesson is: don't copy applications. Take time out to download them yourself. And if you're reading this message right now, please text me your info... Thank you.